I wasn't feeling well enough to have Evelyn come spend the night last night, so now Amanda is PO'd again, so I probably won't see the girls today. I miss them terribly. I would give anything to be able to see them more often. They are the main of what keeps me going, when all else is going wrong.
I often wonder why people can't be more forgiving. I have forgiven others, and continue to do so. I'm not one to hold a grudge. But boy, there are some out there that don't care. I've done them wrong, and now I am not worth their forgiveness? I wish so much for my sisters back. I miss them so much also. am so grateful for my wonderful friends...the real ones that stay with me, no matter what I have went through, or done, or the mistakes I have made. They realize that we as a society are not perfect, and they don't expect it of me. I am also grateful for my sons, and the way they love me, unconditionally. I will step back, so that Nick will not have that added stress in his life.....but in doing so, my heart is breaking over and over again. Casey is a wonderful daughter-in-law. No matter what, she never wants to come between Jack and us. She is very forgiving, and very loving. My relationship with Riki-lee is much better now that we do not live in the same house. That she loves Kenny, is the one thing that makes her wonderful in my eyes. She is good for him.
So, for my friends out there, thank you. For my relatives that have stuck by me, I love you, thank you. I am blessed.
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