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I want to first thank my two followers of this blog.  I wonder sometimes if I should just quit, but I think I'm doing it for me more than for anyone else, so I will continue.
The weather is finally showing absolute signs of spring!  The robins are back - I've seen at least 5 already.  The graders are out fixing the roads. The horses are standing in the muck and mud in their fields, and the chipmunks are back.  The worst of spring is the flies and bugs coming back into my life...yuk!  We have these lovely asian beetles, that look like ladybugs, but stink to high hell!  They are finding ways into my house (or maybe they've been here all along, just hibernating, but I can't stand to think of that).  The snow is almost gone, except in the places that don't get much sun, and in those places it's holding on a little longer, almost as if it does not want to go either.  It's a bad time for me pain wise.  The dampness makes my life a living hell for those days until the sun dries everything out nice, and before the humidity of the summer starts.  Everything that can ache, does. 
But enough about the aches and pains.  I cannot dwell on that, or I will sit and cry and fall into a depression again, and I can't have that happening.  The bipolar is under control, and I feel like a real person now.  I don't want to lose me again, in some weird fantasy world, where no one else's feelings matter.
I am better for now, and that's all that matters.  Hopefully one of these days it will be warm (and dry) enough for me to go out riding.  Cece is getting a little tired of not being taken out for his first gallop of the year!  Lets just hope that all the yoga has worked towards my balance problems, and that I can actually stay on!  lol
:)