Well, today I went for a follow-up visit with Dr. Holmes. Let me tell you, after years of seeing the previous two family doctors, this guy really knows how to find out what is causing my health problems. First time I saw him, he diagnosed a severe kidney infection, one that he figures I have had for months if not years. After 5 weeks of antibiotics, I'm still looking at another 4-6 weeks. Now with the rest of the bloodwork and other tests results, it seems that that is not my only problem. I also have a long standing stomach infection which has caused inflammation and some other more minor problems.....all easily fixed if caught in time. I wonder if in our countries search for more doctors, we are giving rights to doctors from other countries that just don't meet the grade.
As for other aspects of my life.....we have again had snow, and in fact are still in the throes of a snow storm right now. It's supposed to end within the next few hours, but I know that we have received more than 8" in less than 24 hours. And here I thought it was spring! Mother nature is fooling us again.
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
. you
I want to first thank my two followers of this blog. I wonder sometimes if I should just quit, but I think I'm doing it for me more than for anyone else, so I will continue.
The weather is finally showing absolute signs of spring! The robins are back - I've seen at least 5 already. The graders are out fixing the roads. The horses are standing in the muck and mud in their fields, and the chipmunks are back. The worst of spring is the flies and bugs coming back into my life...yuk! We have these lovely asian beetles, that look like ladybugs, but stink to high hell! They are finding ways into my house (or maybe they've been here all along, just hibernating, but I can't stand to think of that). The snow is almost gone, except in the places that don't get much sun, and in those places it's holding on a little longer, almost as if it does not want to go either. It's a bad time for me pain wise. The dampness makes my life a living hell for those days until the sun dries everything out nice, and before the humidity of the summer starts. Everything that can ache, does.
But enough about the aches and pains. I cannot dwell on that, or I will sit and cry and fall into a depression again, and I can't have that happening. The bipolar is under control, and I feel like a real person now. I don't want to lose me again, in some weird fantasy world, where no one else's feelings matter.
I am better for now, and that's all that matters. Hopefully one of these days it will be warm (and dry) enough for me to go out riding. Cece is getting a little tired of not being taken out for his first gallop of the year! Lets just hope that all the yoga has worked towards my balance problems, and that I can actually stay on! lol
:)
The weather is finally showing absolute signs of spring! The robins are back - I've seen at least 5 already. The graders are out fixing the roads. The horses are standing in the muck and mud in their fields, and the chipmunks are back. The worst of spring is the flies and bugs coming back into my life...yuk! We have these lovely asian beetles, that look like ladybugs, but stink to high hell! They are finding ways into my house (or maybe they've been here all along, just hibernating, but I can't stand to think of that). The snow is almost gone, except in the places that don't get much sun, and in those places it's holding on a little longer, almost as if it does not want to go either. It's a bad time for me pain wise. The dampness makes my life a living hell for those days until the sun dries everything out nice, and before the humidity of the summer starts. Everything that can ache, does.
But enough about the aches and pains. I cannot dwell on that, or I will sit and cry and fall into a depression again, and I can't have that happening. The bipolar is under control, and I feel like a real person now. I don't want to lose me again, in some weird fantasy world, where no one else's feelings matter.
I am better for now, and that's all that matters. Hopefully one of these days it will be warm (and dry) enough for me to go out riding. Cece is getting a little tired of not being taken out for his first gallop of the year! Lets just hope that all the yoga has worked towards my balance problems, and that I can actually stay on! lol
:)
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Once more with Feeling
Well, it's been a while since my pain was this bad, but today it is almost bringing me to tears. Anyone who knows me can tell you it takes a lot of pain to do that. Being in pain since I have been a kid has taught me to tough it out in most cases, but today, I can't. Don't feel sorry for me though, I don't want that. I'm just telling you, so that you will understand that when you see tears, it's bad. I can usually hide things pretty well, but I can't hide this today.
I'm curled up on the couch with a sweater and a fuzzy blanket and my computer on my lap. My meds are on the table beside me, along with the phone and a gingerale. The guinea pigs are squeaking and chasing each other around in their cage. Lucy is sleeping on the floor at my side. Now if only Chico and Cece could be here with me, I would be surrounded by my cherished animals. I would love my granddaughters here as well, but with the pain today, I don't think I could handle them.
Anyway, can't type anymore right now....my fingers are swelling as we speak. Stay tuned for more!
I'm curled up on the couch with a sweater and a fuzzy blanket and my computer on my lap. My meds are on the table beside me, along with the phone and a gingerale. The guinea pigs are squeaking and chasing each other around in their cage. Lucy is sleeping on the floor at my side. Now if only Chico and Cece could be here with me, I would be surrounded by my cherished animals. I would love my granddaughters here as well, but with the pain today, I don't think I could handle them.
Anyway, can't type anymore right now....my fingers are swelling as we speak. Stay tuned for more!
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